Silently waiting

Hello my name is Cassi and I am a newbie blogger! As a wife and mother of three, soon to be four, my husband said my blog name should be "Four kids and crazy" I said " I'm not crazy though!" He said "I know your not crazy but our life is." So that is where we will begin. It's january 4th, 2015 and I am ready to start something new and fun and see where it goes. I've never been a good writer or good at English so "IM SORRY!" But I am real, I'm human, I'm me😄  
November of 2014 just a few short months ago my life got flipped upside down and I did the only thing I knew to do, write. I started when I was young and I've continued to rely on my journal all through marriage and kids and the ups and downs they bring. So in November when were told to rush our oldest son to Doernbechers children's hospital due to kidney issues, I started writting! The day's felt long, the nights even longer and although we were able to leave earlier than planned and with a plan, I needed to release my thoughts and prayers out of my head and heart and onto paper. There's just something about that isn't there? It could be the same words as in your head but written out on paper seems to give them meaning, or understanding, sometimes a hope or a future. Words can be soooo powerful and meaningful. Anyway, as I layed there watching my son go through a super scary situation with his head held high and faith in us and his doctors ( he didn't have any reason not too) I found myself resting in the peace of God in a way I had never before in my life. I wasn't scared. I wasn't nervous. I KNEW in my knower that the Lords hand was on my son and that he would walk away from this. I remember listening to the doctors and the nurses, I remeber asking questions and getting clarification so I could understand, and then I would sit and release those things to the Lord, like a silent prayer. I would tell the Lord what the doctors said we needed and then I'd wait for them to say it had come. And it DID! Each and everyday. With each and every step of meds, test, results, the Lord would come through. This is what I want to share with you. My husband and I have both been born and raised in the same church, grew up as friends and left as high school sweethearts that got married and started early. We've had ours ups and our downs. We've been through hell and back it seems some years. But through it all we have had each other, our family, our church and more importantly we have the Lord. 

My son is now living with a kidney condition called "Nephrotic syndrome" we left the hospital with a very strict, low sodium diet (more to be blogged about I'm sure) water restriction, potassium restriction, daily meds, weight watch and urine tests. The understanding is he will grow out of this but for now our lives have changed and daily we are learning something new and growing as a family through it all.