Take a breath

This week marks my 12wk of pregnancy with #4 which most of you know also marks the end of one trimester and the begining of a new one. Not just a new one though, let's be real.... The best one! At leat that's what "they" say. So far my gagging and complete nausea due to the pure thought of cooking a meal have subsided and I can almost sleep though the night with only one trip to the bathroom. WHY by the way does a baby the size of a bean-lime have the power to make you pee 100 times a day?! Ok anyway, malachi my youngest and only child not in school was with me for my doctors check ups today and I knew that he would get to hear the heart beat so I was excited, especially because as the baby of the family till now he has his moments when a baby isn't even a welcome thought. But as we layed there looking for the quick flutter flutter of the babies heart beat, my doctor couldn't find it. 

Pause..... I was holding my breath.... I've done this enough times to know they find it fast and always do unless something is wrong, so I just layed there and prayed silently "lord this baby is fine, just hiding" so within maybe 1-2 min total she had an ultrasound machine and was plugging it in and telling me as calmly as possible that it will take a second to warm up but we will find his baby. 

So release your breath with me... Baby was fine! Kicking and squirming and waving. Heart beat was normal and going strong. While the baby was on the screen my son was immediately overcome with excitement and asked the doctor if he could touch my stomache, of course she said "yes", so he was touching the baby talking to it and loving it! It was one of the coolest moments of my life and another perfect reminder of Gods creation and splendor 

Ecl 11:5 

And you knowest not what is the way of the wind, nor how the bones do grow in the womb of her that is with child; even so you knowest not the work of God who  doeth all. 

 There are moments in our days, weeks, lives that take our breath away. Some good, some scary like today. But through it ALL God is still God. His word is still true. You might say this is easy for me to  say cause it turned out well for me, and I will say today yes it did. But there was an appointment once in my life when it didn't. I've been there, ive had to deal with that loss and I've felt that heartache  and I still choose to praise the Lord for His mercies endure forever. 

Malachi and Judah say this is a "boy" chase and mom say this is a "girl" daddy doesn't care but we will all find out in roughly 4-6 weeks so stay tuned!! And GOD BLESS YOU!