Moms day out

Ok let's be real, EVERY mom needs some alone time. And I'm not saying grocery shopping without kids, I mean ME time! It's needed, it's how we refuel and get ready for the next dayssssss. Well over the last year or so I have taken this responsibility seriously and have also seen the wonderful effects of my alone time. Ok by alone I mean with my Best friend or friends. By alone I mean WITHOUT KIDS OR SPOUCES. 

So as my friend and I were out shopping with our combined three kids and a pregnant belly ( two of my kids were in school) my youngest at the time, 5yr old Ky announces he has to go potty, then OOPS I need to go again, then Mom I have to go potty again! All three bathroom trips while shopping at Ross and in less than 15 min. I decided it's time to call this trip OVER. I have a feeling this will not end well if we keep on. So we climb back into the car. by climb I mean take 10 min to buckle and fit my belly into the crowded three car seat middle of the small suv, and we're off towards home, skipping the lunch at Taco Bell we had planned THANK GOD! Because less than half way home this same said 5yr old announces he doesn't feel so good, and we ask "do you need to go potty again or does your tummy hurt?" His tummy hurts he says, ok I'm a little nervous but it'll be ok,right? NO!!!! 

One minute later he is vomiting all over himself, the car, he can't stop! Driver has pulled over on the side of the busy country hwy and I, mom who am pregnant, am also now gagging and slightly throwing up due to said belly baby as I'm grabbing him and his vomit covered body out of the car as FAST as I can. Now he anonouces he needs to go potty too! 

OH....MY.....GOODNESS.....  this has to be the worst thing ever! So I wrap his naked shaking, sick body in my best friends cardigan ( the only piece of clothing left in the whole car NOT covered in vomit) and I carry him 30yrds to the woods at the side of the road and help him go potty .  Ok, now we know we have to get back in the car drive another 15-20 min home and get this kid in the bath.

 Mean while baby screaming in car seat, toddler asking why Kys crying, best friend is cleaning Her car of all vomit and I am helping little sick barely standing boy back in the car;( 

Poor guy, worst sick story of my mom life and I've experienced some whoppers.  Needless to say a day down and some hydration ahead I had to share my oh so true life event with you all. 

 

I must tell you though, that before all this I was able to purchase the desired nursery rug for baby number four! So it's kind of a win for the day?! 

Good night and God bless! 

Father of mine

 I've contiplated writing this many times and I'll be saving it when I'm done before I post just to be sure. Please excuse the fact that will probably be jumpy and LONG. But it's one of the biggest stories of my life. I wanted to write about a journey I had a few years back, that shook my whole world and left me closer to my father than ever before.  

 When I was 10 years old I remember my mom asking me to come sit outside and talk to her, I had NO CLUE what was coming.... She continued to tell me that the man I had grown to know as my father was in fact NOT my biological dad. I can't tell you all the details from that day cause I honestly don't remember them. What I do remember is being so overcome with questions and instability that it has taken me over 20 years to be completely OK with myself, my story, and my father. 

I was a good teenager in my opinion:) didn't get into trouble, didn't party, do drugs, drink or hang with people that did. I had crushes and LOTS of them, but growing up in a Christian home and attending 12 years at a private small town Christian school kept me in a bubble of protection and grace. Obviously I wasn't perfect and I kissed the boys and held their hands and I LONGED  for affection and attention. By the time I was in HS I barely talked with my parents outside of the bare minimum " hi, how are you, how was your day, did you win the game?" We were two ships passing in the wind... And I knew i was lost, looking for love and a mans affection.  I say all this because I KNOW it matters. Every younge women, little girl, teen, needs a Godly man in her life to validate her, lift her up, protect her and teach her what a respectful man looks like. 

Somehow, (by Gods grace alone) I fell in love with and married my HS sweet heart. He's a godly man who loves me and the family we have created. He is the definition of the father I could only dream of for our daughters and sons. 

Throughout the years of my life dreamt and wrote letters and considered what my biological father would be like, look like, act like. Did he know me? Did he miss me? Did he look for me? Questions I never felt like I had the freedom to ask growing up and it left me with a huge open whole! A big part of me was missing answers and with each child I had the privilege of birthing I felt like those questions grew and grew. Do they look like Him? Is he tall? Is he healthy?   

I was given His name and rough age range by my mother as the years had gone on, so every other year or so I would try an online search or call system that always got me to a page where I had to pay money to go further, money I didn't have and didn't want to spend on the unknown. 

December 2009, I realize in a random thought that Facebook is where people reconnect all the time!! It's how families stay connected and people stay in contact. So I had my mom look, find, and write a message to the man behind the story. 

-SHE FOUND HIM

-HE DIDNT RESPOND

- my dreams were crushed!!

Then it accured to me, maybe he doesn't get on Facebook very often, maybe he's married or has kids that do? I found this said wife, and messaged her, less than 10 min later I received a message back! 

- HOLY FREEK OUT MOMENT!!

- HE WAS REAL! 

She asked if they could call and talk ? I thought I was gana have a panic attack, I'm not sure I didn't have one. I responded and he called! We talked for over an hour, he answered every question I ever had, he told me about his life and how absolutely different it was from the home God had given me. I realized then that the Lord had placed me right where I belonged! That His plans were so much higher than my plans. 

Bio dad and I made the best out of a very long and distant relationship and for three years we called, texted, face-booked, and made plans for a face to face visit . But in those three years I also learned more about my life, my bio dad, my mom, and my father here in my life. I came to respect the decisions he had made for me, the things He did to fight for me, and thanked the Lord for placing me with my family dispite the loss I felt for so long. 

Last spring exactly a year ago, bio dad called and said he was coming! Bought his plain ticket and this was going to happen. 

- PANICK AGAIN

- IM NOT READY FOR THIS! 

But even through my fears I knew God was with me, my husband was beside me, and God had a plan. I trusted Him and prayed everyday for His peace to overwhelm me. I had decided that this was a make or brake point in our relationship and in my life. Being torn between respecting and learning to love a man who gave me life vs a man who raised me and gave me a home. I couldnt help but constantly feel torn between the two. 

The week of bio dads arrival we confirmed his reservations at a near by b&b and our plans to get to know each other then introduce my family and friends. We had a PLAN. 

The Morning of the event he doesn't get on his plain, he doesn't text, he doesn't call, he doesn't explain, he doesn't COME! 

I've not heard from Him once, no explanation, BUT..... I have what I need. My family, my father, and MOST of all I have and always have had my HEAVENLY FATHER! He never abandoned me, He never left me, He was always there, always had me surrounded with faithful friends and family. He placed me in a godly home, in a godly school, with a godly man. 

So many crazy things have happened in my life and my parents are not married anymore I have other siblings and Inlaws, and step parents. I've gained and lost someone I always thought I needed only to realize everything and everyone I ever needed I ALREADY HAD! 

I was hurt, I cried a little, being abandoned as a child and again as an adult hurt, but I was never alone. And eithe rare you! 

I don't know who this might reach or if anyone but me needed to read it, but God knows who we are, what we need, where we will go and how to get us there. He will never leave you or forsake you! Lean on Him, trust Him, and know He will make the path straight, He will make a way. 

My kids were saved from the pain of this loss and experience because the Lord had me keep them seperate from it from day one. I've learned to hear His voice on my families behalf and to trust He sees more than I do.  Be blessed today and for always- 

YOU

- Your job starts at 1am and it ends at 1am. Meaning of course IT NEVER ENDS! 

- you hear every little breathe and sound and you respond to the ones that need you. 

- you pray and care and worry ALL the time and never stop. 

- you are constantly thinking of creative ways to make memories and you do everything you can to make them happen. 

- your a taxi cab 24hrs a day

- you are a chef at every meal and snack time

- your a laundry mat and housekeeper

- you kiss the boo boos and sing the lullabies 

- your the doctor and nurse and puke bucket some times

 You constantly feel like it's not enough and don't have the energy sometimes but you know this is the best and most important job anyone could possibly have. It's the most rewarding and energy draining thing there is. YOU are a rockstar! You are gods gift to your family and the mother He chose for your kids. YOU have the gifts and talents those kids need and HE chose you! 

So when your down, tired, drained, or exhausted. When you don't know what to do or what to say you just remember the Lord chose you and He wanted you for your family! There are hard days but there are extraordinary days too, you'll get through them and you'll reach those hearts, just ask for wisdom and guidance from our Lord and His word. Keep your head up, you've got this momma! 

Change wars$$$$

This week at CCS, my kids school, they had spirit week in honor of raising money for Twonga a younge African girl. Each year the school adopts a student and raises money in different ways to send to her and her family. Here are most of the dress days minus Pajama day. 

Tourist day- 

Disney day- 

Favorite team day- 

Black out/white out day- for ky he chose grey:) 

To end the week the school held a "pie a senior day" for $1.00 you could pie your favorite senior and pay for as many as you'd like. My kids have an uncle (Jordan) and a cousin (Miranda) plus many different TA's and friends to choose from. Here are a few of the fun pics and messy faces. 

Great event for a great cause! Thanks CCS seniors for being good sports, we love you and all you stand for and do- blessings from the Syphard family. 

Number 4

Being pregnant five years after you decided you wouldn't be pregnant again has some super fun advantages! Like..... 

Doing your first baby story;) and having an amazing photographer as your little brothers girlfriend! So here is a glimps into what we get to share with our families and friends and have as wonderful memories for the rest of our lives. 

 This is my favorite room in the house: my hubby made my headboard and it turned out perfect. 

The Fab-Five plus one- 

Our kids are growing so fast I wanted to document who was taller when it all started;) I have a feeling the little lad on the end will be our tallest one as he has yearly kept tracking at 90% for heigth. 

They make me the proudest momma ever! 

 This boy and his baby sister- He loves her already. 

And my Favorite of the day!;) sweet baby bump. 

And this is... Well it's US! I love him more than words and we are the best of friends. Thanks for giving me another perfect gift hunny. 

Thanks @laceylouphotography for all your work and your time. We love you and I can't wait to finish our birth story together!! 

Geeks and baseball

 "Geeks!! Wook at all those geeks!! They are gana eat the baby cows!"

 What? You say, as I did, in the car with my five year old, who was pointing out the window at all the GEESE in the cow field across from our house. Hahahha now and forever those pour birds will be GEEKS  in the Syphard home.

Now we head into baseball mode:) 

My handsome hubby is a coach on the HS team, then my son and daughter are both on CCS baseball/t-ball teams this season. So Malachi and I are packed and clothed and ready to go. 

Syphards are in full swing! Baseball teams for three out of five people makes for a very colorful fridge calendar and a VERY busy mommy. But the sun is out and these kids are super excited for this spring season. 

Chase our daughter who has NEVER Played a sport (she's in 2nd grade now) decided she wanted to play t-ball so daddy took her shopping to get all the gear she NEEDED (wanted). Wowza that was a small fortune;) 

 Judah our seasonal baseball player didn't need a whole lot but some sliding shorts and a "cup" which became quite the topic of conversation on the way to church last Sunday. Heheheheh, still makes me giggle. Big brother says he needs sliding shorts and a up, Chase says Ya I need a cup too, we both start laughing and she wasn't to thrilled! When we explained why she didn't need a cup  she said "oh I thought it was a drink

 cup"!! Bahahhahahaah that will also forever be a Syphard story. 

Enjoy your Easter Holiday many blessings on you and your family's.